Deep Inside

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I dunno exactly what I feel,

but now I feel uncomfortable with my surrounding.

I stuck on my silly thoughts.

All I do is meaningless. Useless. Nothing.

Friends. Bestest.
Just doing nothing.
They don't give motivation anymore.
Make me down.
There are not friends again.
It just a stupid fairy tale.

I tried to be a nice person,

but I can't feel it yet.

I just like a bloody moron.

Selfish. Foolish.

There are no love and no care.

The tears often drop from this eyes.

This heart so hurt, when they don't care again.

I wanna be a strong girl.

Yeah, a strong girl!

But it doesn't make me on spirit.

That statement doesn't make me better.

I did their commands sincerely,

but when they got what they want

they left me and don't care anymore.

This heart hurt so bad.
When I remembered about all.

Now, it's going worse.

It's getting harder and harder.

I don't have a confidence again to do something.

Here, I like a loser.

I must try.

I'll keep trying. I'll keep trying. I'll keep trying.

This soul need a spirit.

Need a motivation.

I believe,

I can survive in this situation and condition.

I will pass this way.

With my way. my best way.

I will show the world

what's inside myself,

what's inside my heart.

I will love myself.

And beloved for who I am.

I still believe,

Loser will be the winner :)